The divine encounter with Elohim Adonai.by Pieter Kirstein

Who is your God?

A message from the holy heart of the Father.

Years ago I was laying in my bed upset with the Lord because of my singleness and because everybody around me seemed to be blessed but I was in a wilderness. I felt miserable and alone i wanted a wife to make me happy and whom i could love. I thought that a woman was what i needed in my life to satisfy me when suddenly the great God Jehovah our heavenly Father showed up in my room.

His presence was so powerful that I fell out of my bed unto the floor and I broke down in tears as the holy all-consuming love of Adonai rushed through my entire being.

I found myself on my face before the One who created me.

Then the Lord God started to speak. His holy voice pierced my soul like living fire and as He spoke the meaning and intensity of what God said played of like a movie through my entire being. All I could do was to weep like a child because the ecstasy of God's love completely overwhelmed me.

Then the Father said; "Find the deepest desire of any man and you shall discover his god."

In other words; What is the greatest desire that drives your entire destiny and pursuit in your life?

What is it that you think you need the most in life to make you happy and a complete person?

God the Father then asked the next question. He said; "How can My love be shed abroad in your heart by My Holy Spirit if your heart is so filled with other desires?"

Then He showed me a cup and asked; "How can i fill a cup that is already full?"

The conviction of the Holy Spirit fell upon me and I realized that I was in idolatry because I thought a woman was what I needed to fulfil my hearts desire.

Understand this!

Idolatry within our hearts are desires that break, interferes or distorts our dedication, devotion and pursuit of the love of Almighty God. It is when we allow the desire for other things to interfere with us being completely sold-out to God. It's been about six years since that very intimate encounter with my heavenly Father and I'm very glad to say that I am entirely happy,  satisfied and fulfilled in my relationship with the Lord God Almighty who's habitation is holy and I am happy in my singleness. Jesus said to me; "You are free to the degree that you allow the love of God to conquer your heart."

When there is a pursuit or a desire towards a certain thing, there shall be a pull. A person's heart is exposed by the things which he pursues. In Matthew 6:33 Jesus admonished us when He said; But seek you first the kingdom of God, and His righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.

It means to passionately pursue the KING of God's kingdom and allowing yourself to be wholly conquered by His royal holy love because nothing can satisfy the human heart and soul like the love of Almighty God. Our greatest need and actual desire as the ones created in His image and within His likeness is to be loved by God.

He is love and love birthed us so naturally we were designed and created to respond to His love but God said to me it's what keeps us in bondage on the inside through our brokenness that prevents us from responding to His love. The god of this stupid deceptive fallen realm works to keep us in bondage to the temporary desires of our 5 physical senses. Through lustful desires he turns us into sensual slaves. A sensualist is a person that is pre-occupied with the indulgence and the stimulation of his 5 bodily senses. If Satan can succeed to keep you imprisoned to your own desires he shall be your conqueror.

The next thing that the Father said to me blew my mind. He told me; "My deepest desire and My only quest is to capture the entire heart of man. This is why I gave up and sacrificed My Son Jesus because through that sacrifice the love of God was demonstrated to man and our desire for intimacy and fellowship. I created man to have an eternal companion. The very thought, desire,  design and plan of man was birthed in the depths of Jehovah's heart. I still cry out through the beauty of My creation and every perfect gift that comes from the Father of lights. I still cry out as within the garden; ADAM, WHERE ARE YOU?"

I gave man gifts because I desire for them to perceive and discern the heart of God within the gifts. I still speak through the gift of My Son Jesus Christ because I greatly desire for man to pursue and understand My great love for them but when desire for other things start to creep in and they lose focus they become worshippers of idols and their devotion and commitment toward Me becomes contaminated. Like any lover I am jealous and I desire wholehearted surrender.

Would you share your spouse with another lover?

Then why does man think I would be satisfied with second best? 

I call for intimacy.
I call for commitment.
I call for abandonment.
I call for wholehearted surrender.

I am a passionate God and lover of your soul.

Most Christians miss out big time because their devotion are toward other things and they have many lovers,  meaning things which they pursue that break their devotion toward the Lord. When your heart has been captivated and conquered by the love of God,  you shall be free from the influence of this fallen world.

The Lord Jesus Christ said to me; "You are crucified with Me when you are no longer influenced by the world around you"

To be conquered by the all-satisfying love of God is to be dead to self. The Lord is the One that works this kind of deep complete surrender into the hearts of His royal subjects but you must ask Him and allow Him to do it.

Fleshy lust and desire is like a burning fire and a bottomless pit that shall destroy and consume those who indulge in it. Break away from worldly desire and allow the Lover of your soul to capture your entire heart. Only the love of God can satisfy and heal our brokenness. I will not stand as a an enemy nor a stranger before my Bridegroom,  Lover and King. Today I'm glad to say that by the grace of God and His holy influence in my life I have entirely embraced the covenant of circumcision. This means that the Lord and I are one in vision,  desire and purpose because through demonstrated love we gave our hearts and our lives to each other. He died for my sins so that I can die to my sin. That power is available as we we abandon ourselves to the love of God. When He is allowed to invade the human heart then He becomes your freedom. His love conquers and dethrones all contrary desire. God's love, when surrendered to, becomes the strength of the heart. No other desire can challenge or defeat a heart that is ruled and conquered by the love of God.

When you embrace the challenge to be conquered by the love of God through the sacrifice of your personal cross He will bring you through the veil of your carnal nature into His world where freedom dwells.

Matthew 16:24  Then said Jesus unto His disciples, If any man will come after He, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow Me.

25  For whosoever will save his life shall lose it: and whosoever will lose his life for My sake shall find it.

26  For what is a man profited, if he shall gain the whole world, and lose his own soul? or what shall a man give in exchange for his soul?

27  For the Son of man shall come in the glory of His Father with His angels; and then He shall reward every man according to his works.