Your desire to be special or to stand out in some way is misplaced. Selfish ambition will derail your spiritual journey and is founded on insecurity. Find your sense of value in being in the secret place of My presence, says the Lord. Your motivation for doing what you do must be pure and righteous. Humility is a very attractive characteristic. Psalms 91:1 He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.